Men suck!

Just when you thought this month couldn't get any worse YES IT DID!! Some days I cant understand how I am still around. It brings me back to a lot of thoughts in my head. I am a mental mess! I will go into details later. I will give you a clue...
Men are clueless heartless and selfish bastards!!!! Fuck you my boyfriend!!! I am highly and beyond pissed at him and I will tell you later why.

So its later. My man lied to me last night. Then after lying to be he decided to do what he wanted. He hurted me big time last night and was very disrespectful. He hurt my feelings and kept on stepping on them all night. This morning because of me going to bed at 4am I woke up totally late for work. I spent most of the day crying. Why doesn't he just understand? I keep asking that over and over again. When I got home he was gone. I went to take a nap and on the pillow was a single rose. Now if you know my man you know that this was a huge step for him. He is no where forgiven but he is one toe out of the dog house. Its funny cause I sit back and think a lot. I ask a lot when I will get my ring. We will be together for 5 years in Nov and still nothing. I think he thinks as soon as I get that ring then boom you have to get married. No that's not it at all. I just want a commitment from him to say hey you are wonderful enough to marry in the future. You see the way I see things is one of these days someone is just going to come and see that I don't have a ring and get to know me. After waiting so many years I might not see what my man wants and find someone else. I think he is to comfortable here he is at. I give him a 110% to him and I get 50% back. I am 30 and I think with the shit ass life behind me its time that I get treat real! Take me or leave me lets not play stupid games. Well I am heading because I need more sleep. I am totally drained!