Love hurts!!

Some days are happy and most days suck!! I am tired of fighting with my man. Its been a lot lately because he doesn't get it. We use to never fight because I never rocked the boat. Well I am sick of getting treated like shit. The funny thing is is that he doesn't see any fault. If I wanted to be a single mother I would have only 3 kids and not 4. When I work on the weekends he is home with the kids. He sleeps and the kids run like crazy. They miss breakfast and lunch because he is other sleeping or they don't say nothing to him because they don't want to get yelled at. Yes I keep things around the house for them to snack on but my kids need a meal. I am so sick of my man just acting like another kid. He just doesn't understand and I am afraid that he never will. I truly this time need to go find somewhere to live. 5 years just thrown down the toilet because he cant grow up. He doesn't see it! I know he loves the hell out of me don't get me wrong but for all these years I have been his mother. I love him so much it hurts and I am afraid that I will hurt myself if I don't let go. Thank god for my 3 kids that keep me on the right track. I am going to go!