Read at your own caution!!

Starting to think how long will I make excuses for him? Okay yeah yeah he has had a hard childhood and I feel bad for him but when is it time to grow up and be a man? What he has before him is good and he wants to be pissed about what he hasn't had in his past. I am here showing you love and making you feel like you are the greatest guy around and you are there pushing my love away because you cant handle it.

Yes he pissed me off again last night big time. He went out and bought himself something for $40 and I was a little let down. I asked him if he was going to buy me something for Christmas? He told me no. Okay for every holiday I buy him something and return I get shit! So you went out and bought you something and you are not planning on buying me something bullshit!! So he said okay I will buy you something. Hell no fucker!! Why oh why do I have to push him to buying me something? Can you please thank of someone besides yourself??? I am sick and tired of it. He asked if I was mad at him and I told him this.. No I am not mad at you I am pissed off at myself because for 5 years now you have treated me like shit and I put up with it. I am sick of it and I am getting smarter now and one of these days when my shit is gone then you will become a man and figure out where you went wrong. He was silent! He wouldn't talk to me all night. I am hoping he is thinking about it. Shit who knows he has no clue. I told him that his family our friends and everyone in this damn world why the hell he hasn't proposed to me yet? Now come on fuck the paper gets signed shit goes south. I am damn sick of that excuse also. Am I not worth the commitment? Seems like it huh? Fuck him anyway! Now I know why my sister likes girls she doesn't have to put up with men's shit!! Damn I am pissed today! Cant tell can you?

My goal for next year fuck the excuses!! I don't want to hear any of them.