Dec 5th

I am completely froze. This damn weather!! I hate snow! My car is old and hates the cold weather also. Please can I have summer again? Okay enough bitching.

Work went pretty shitty which I called last night. I did take a shower last night but a lot of them avoided me like a plague. Well that is okay because I know that I haven't done nothing wrong so they can be mean to me and I really don't care. Dang my life is getting boring here lately. I go online everyday and look up prices for Vegas because I just to get thro the day at work. Yes I am going to stay at New York New York Casino for 5 days 4 nights for $450. I cant wait but its still not until May. I have been looking for cheap and free things to do there. I am going to some night club there.


This is what happened a year ago....Written in my diaryland journal

59 p.m. - 2004-12-05

Isn't it fun sometimes how things happen? I sit here and keep thinking about what just happened. My mom got me a ticket to the "singing Christmas tree" this in my town is a huge thing. This is the first time I have gone. So anyway we get there early and get our seats. So along came this guy that sat down infront of us and was joking around with us. He asked me some questions. He asked if I was married and I said no not any more. He told me that I need to start being so hard and come to terms with everything. The show started and when it was over I got up and headed out. The guy stopped me and gave me a hug and said trust me it will get better and this was a great place for you to be tonight. I do believe in God and stuff I also believe that this meeting was suppose to happen. Its just kind of weird. I sit here and think yes I am a mental mess. I know what I need to change but the energy level is not always there. Can others around me change also? Meaning my BF and kids? I have a lot of work on myself. I need to make this decision to do this. Okay I need to go and clean some clothes.


I am going to try to find something fun to do.....