Winter is here

Snow sucks! Actually snow is okay but the 50mph wind sucks. THey shut down our whole town because its bad here. I am going to bed so more later...

something little

I found this pic of me and i thought I would throw it up here. It was my birthday. No I dont like bowling that much but having that ball was part of a game.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

What a rememberable weekend!!

It all started Friday when I worked 2 to 10pm. Red called me and told me that she was in town with her family. They were staying at a hotel swimming and she wanted me to come up and meet them. I knew that I had to get up early in the morning so I wasn't going to go. One of the girls at work that knows her family said to me have you met her brother yet? No I have only met her father. She told me that he is good looking. So then I had to go. So I get up there and go to the pool. Kids everywhere. Yes her brother is fine. I stay for about an hour. I had 2 drinks and I was feeling a little buzzed. I got home and I decided that I would do the shopping for groceys the next morning. I packed up some clothes and hit the hay around midnight. The alarm went off at 3am and I jumped up. I went to Wally world and got food. Came home and everyone was still sound asleep. Woke up everyone and loaded up the truck. We were off for the weekend up to the farm for a fun weekend of deer hunting.

We got there before the sun came up. We spent the day looking for deer. On Saturday I didn't see one dang deer. We spent 11 hours in a truck. By the time we got back to the cabin I had to cook and get everyone ready for bed. We sleep in a camper and guess what when I laid down I saw dead flies everywhere. Nothing like sleeping with dead flies. I was so tired so I tried to get some of them off the bed but I know I didn't get them all. We didn't get up so early the next day. My mans dad came up and we had to move the cattle to a different field. We finally got in the truck and drove around again. My man was getting pissed off cause we still haven't seen any deer. I said to him if its meant for me to shoot and deer then I will. One second after that 3 deer come out of some trees. I got all excited trying to load the gun. I jammed my finger. We chased them but soon they were gone. We walked about 10 miles yesterday thru little canyons. Man I was totally tired. By the end of the day no deer but I think I might of lost some pounds. Got home last night late. Kids are in school and I am going to take a nap. Peace out!

For the record.....

Work as been shit pure shit!! There is high school bullshit going on. I reached my boiling point yesterday. I went to my boss's office to vent. Boy did I! I was pissed that they didn't let me go on my trip. I explained that to her. I feel like they are letting a certain person get away with murder. I just didn't understand why oh why she gets to do what ever she wants.

I finally thought about it for a long time last night. There are things that I can not change. My best friend is getting hurt big time. But I truly believe that the more that we continue to think about it it will only hurt us more. So the other person don't want to take any blame so be it. That is her and she is the one that needs to figure out her mentalness. So I am going on with my life and not staying in the mess. Its time for me to be happy and enjoy my job again. That's my peace and I am over it!!!

I want to scream!

I want to scream so bad right now. I am at work and I want to tell them that this is not fair. I am hurting so bad and no one cares. I have no one to talk about this situation except Red because I don't trust anyone. Most people are afraid to stand up because they don't want the hell of the rath. Dang it I am going to lose my head! GGGGRRRRRHHHHHH!

Just when you thought everything has calmed down? Boom the shit is stired again. I sometimes wonder what the heck god is doing up there. Are you testing us or what. I keep seeing this person do wrong but yet she gets away with it. So I guess I am pissed but I will go to work and just be quiet. My more Red she needs some loving because she is taking the heat badly. I am thinking about going and looking for another job. In the same building but just away from the BS! Pick up your own slack a couple of you.

I better be going cause I need to eat and get to work.

Never fails people just can't be happy with themselves

Just when you think that your sister is moving on and looking forward boom you see her newest diaryland page. She misses she devil. She said she made a mistake and doesn't care what people think about her anymore. Okay sis just wanted to tell you that we don't care if you like the same sex its the bitch we hated. I just want to scream at her and say don't you see it with your eyes? So she devil has been calling her non stop and now my sister thinks that she devil makes her a better person when she is around. CODEPENDENT! Say it out loud with me sister!! Plus the bitch is probably telling her a whole bunch of shit anyway. I want to have a talk with her so bad but I know it will totally end the friendship/sister relationship because she is not willing to open her eyes. Oh well I guess!

So life here in my home is going good. I talked to my man's sister in law that again brought up marriage to him. I told her that their family ruined them. She totally agreed.

I think shit is going to hit the fan at work today. I laughed hard when a girl from work called me and asked to trade a shift. She couldn't work a 2 to 10. Okay not my fault. I wanted last Friday off and no one would put their foot in the door for me. Plus I think I have Austin's IEP that afternoon. Suckers!! Gotta go!

work blows

I gotta go to work soon. 2 to 10's the next 2 days. I kindof sucks but i'll handle it. Took my son to his doc's appt and he dont have to wear the cast anymore. Tomorrow is the sex toy party and I am going to miss all of it. I will still order things but just not having as much fun.

Oh by the way my sister kicked she devil out! That makes me so happy! I still think they are friends but I think my sister is ready for a man. Who knows maybe in a month the she devil will be back. I better be going and get ready for work. C ya laters!!

memories

Last night I was watching all the scary movies on TV which was great. The only thing was the door bell was ringing all the time. Only once a year so I guess I didn't complain that much. I was really tired last night. I think I am still trying to catch up on that one night of partying. I was trying to upload a bunch of pics so you can see my costume but they wont turn out so I need to work on that a little more.

I call to check if I got any child support money thru the damn recorded line. Well it seems like they took Foster income tax return and gave it to me again this year. Now I am wondering where the hell the money is. They got it oct 20th and its not in my bank yet. I will be making some phone calls on that baby! I usually spend that money on Christmas. Yes Its coming soon and I want to cry. Still no regular payments from the assholes yet. Go get jobs dickheads!!

Oh yeah the party... We started getting drunk and we played some games. It was a lot of fun. We decided to go to the bar. Boy did it get crazy there. Did I tell you that I broke up a fight between my man and some army dude? This same dude tried to fight with mike a cousin and I broke up that also. I was the bitch of the night. Before we hit the road to take everyone home I needed to go pee. I went behind the dumpster and everyone started yelling cops. Now I couldn't stop peeing. I got done and thank god that he didn't see me. The ride home was fun also. For some reason we think we are smart and pile like 10 people in one car. Thank god we got home safe. I was smoking and some how my wig caught on fire. We threw my wig out the window. As soon as we got to the house we got out of the car and my wig was caught on the rear bumper. Dang I wish I could of got a pic of that. It reminded me of that one movie where they tie the dead dog to the car and drag it. Let me tell you the next day at worked sucked so bad. I think that is why its taking so long to get over it. I need to find out where the money is so I need to go.