This life is suckin right now!

Wow I am totally stressed today. It is my day off but one of my kids decided she was too sick to go to school. At noon the school called and my son was sick also. Now they are both feeling fine and playing. I think this is my first day off and they all got to be sick.

*warning I am on my period and am very emotionally right now*

So right now I can cry on command. Sometimes I feel like I am getting ahead then boom something happens. I have 3 kids and 2 different fathers. I had one child at the young age of 19 and the sperm donor decided to run so he didn't have to be there for his kid. Then I met someone else married the dickhead and had 2 more kids. Well father or I mean sperm donor #1 pays child support when he wants to work. I never have been dependent on his check commons in because I am use to it. He paid for 6 months and in June he must of quit his job and now I am getting nothing from him. My x-husband well when I divorced him he went about a year without paying child support but since then he has been paying it only because it has been garnished. So I have always received it. He doesn't see his kids or call them at all. We now his child support is 2 weeks past and I am freaking out! So now I will be losing $700 a month. That is a huge chunk of change. My son has medicine that cost me $250 a month. Plus all the doc bills. So needless to say I am screwed. I am going to try to call his mom tonight and get his phone number and ask if he is working and hurt and just cant pay or if he lost his job. I need to know cause if not I need to go to social serves and get my son some help for his medical problems. SO that is my stress. I might have to get another job just to make ends meet around here. That kindof sucks because that means my kids will suffer with not having anyone around and I feel this is exactly what they don't need right now.

I need to have a good cry so I will be back later....